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When Ministry Doesn't Go the Way We Plan

3/5/2014

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I saw at my computer in the basement that chilly Sunday evening in North Dakota pounding out a long email to my sister that could rival War and Peace. A missionary had visited our church and shared with us what the Lord was doing in the country where he and his family served. It touched a deep place in my heart, as I was preparing to leave for the mission field in a few months.

I was overflowing with excitement! In my mind’s eye I could see an amazing work of God: a revival, an awakening, a New Testament church arising to power and victory in Jesus and the Kingdom of God advanced with authority!

The passion of this vision surged through me as I sorted through my belongings; deciding what could fit into my limited luggage and what would have to stay behind or be given away. It wasn’t easy – but that vision in my heart enabled me to make the hard choices. And I embarked on a journey that looks nothing like what it did that wintery night in North Dakota.

When ministry doesn’t go the way we plan
This August will mark my 10th year anniversary on the mission field. And I can say with full assurance that nothing – literally nothing – has gone as I dreamed it would.  Why, then, does God give us these visions and dreams, if He knows they will not come about as we thought?

  1. The human prism. I contend that much of what I envisioned was more “Rosilind” than God. There were elements of God’s plan in that vision, but they were wrapped with, entertained with and heavily seasoned with my own ambitions. And while ambition is most often rooted in pride, I believe that God does understand that we “see through the glass darkly”. He gives us a vision that we simply can’t see the way He sees it, because He is divine and we are human. We can only see through the prism of what we know.

    As I prepared for my journey here, I approached it from an American perspective. That was the only perspective I knew. But, what works in America, doesn’t work in Croatia and it took me several years to learn what does work here and that knowledge has given me the wisdom I need to minister in a way that is effective.

  2. We couldn’t bear it. Had God revealed to me then what I have experienced these past 10 years, I am fairly sure that I would have never left America. While these 10 years have been sprinkled with amazing events, such as meeting my husband, getting married, having two beautiful babies, buying our first home, and meeting some of the loveliest people I’ve ever known; they have also been laced with some pretty hard times. Disappointment, failure, and great loneliness mark major milestones in this journey of mission work.

    He doesn’t tell us the whole story for a reason. It would terrify us with its greatness, wonder, and yes, its disappointment. And as I ponder this truth, I am reminded of something Corrie ten Boom wrote in her book The Hiding Place. She shares how her father illustrated the way God leads us through these times. He doesn’t give us the grace [the ticket] for the journey until we need it. But when we need it, it is there in abundance for us to not only survive the journey, but to victoriously win this race with our arms stretched out as we soar across the finish line!

  3. We must die. A major element to ministry is death. While I know that sounds morbid, and is frankly not very encouraging; it is true. Jesus was the first to mention this with regards to ministry. He told his disciples that if they were not willing to take up their cross – a symbol of death – and follow Him, they were not worthy to be His disciples. In ministry we must die. We must die to our visions. We must die to our ambitions. We must die to our plans. We must die to ourselves. If we don’t we will never see fruit.

    Jesus illustrated this for us with a seed. He said, “Unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it produces much grain.”

    When a seed lies in the ground, it rots. It dies. But from death comes life – a tender shoot, then tiny leaves. As the shoot grows and strengthens, flowers begin to bloom, and then nourishing fruit grows. All of that beauty and nourishment comes from death. If we refuse to lay down our dreams, visions, ambitions and self and bury them, we will never experience the true life of Christ and fruit of the kingdom in our ministry. 


As I look back on that night 10 years ago, and recall those dreams and ambitions, I can’t help but chuckle a bit. They were immature and filled with deadly pride. During my time here, I have struggled to hang on my those selfish dreams, been forced to let them go, cried tears of loss and disappointment, considered myself a miserable failure, and come to peace with the fact that I cannot -  must not - live. It must be Christ who lives in me – and He must work through me. And the joy of death, the sweet aroma of that sacrifice, is worth the loss. Because in dying we live, and in being destitute of self we are rich in Him.

This is when ministry truly becomes ministry! 
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About Rosilind

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Rosilind is an American girl married to a Bosnian guy who lives in a small village just outside of Zagreb. They have two crazy boys 3 and under who are as opposite as boys can be. When Rosilind isn't writing, she is dreaming up recipes and searching for ways to organize her home better. You can find her at A Little R & R where she writes about missions, marriage and family, toddler activities, and her recipes. You will also find her onFacebook, Twitter and Pinterest. 

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Helene link
3/5/2014 01:37:04 pm

This echoes everything I have learned and experienced in ministry! It's never what you think; our dreams are silly and prideful and yet they lead us where he has us headed and it's a journey of dying! Awesome post.

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Rosilind link
3/6/2014 03:24:13 am

Yes - it is a journey of dying. Such a dichotomy, isn't it? Dying so we can live. That's what makes our journey so fascinating.

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Aaron Hackett
3/6/2014 01:41:13 am

Great article. I have done exactly the same... So many times! But Gods plan is so much better. Thanks for writing!!

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Rosilind link
3/6/2014 03:25:17 am

Thanks Aaron. Yes, His plans are so much better - He sees what we cannot, and knows what lies ahead. It's a journey of faith as well.

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mandy kelly link
3/6/2014 02:07:37 am

Oh Ros, this was beautiful. I can relate- in different ways- with my own ministries in the US - both past, present, and probably future! I love your heart! Keep shining!

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Rosilind link
3/6/2014 03:27:00 am

Thanks Mandy! I think this applies to any ministry - even homemaking and motherhood...(those are ministries, too!). We start out our journeys with selfish, immature dreams and learn that to be what God truly intended we have to die. Isn't not easy - but it's rewarding.

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Sheryle Wyatt
3/6/2014 02:07:52 am

Amazing article! Thanks for sharing your heart!!!

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Rosilind link
3/6/2014 03:28:23 am

Thank you, Sheryle. Lots of love to you!!

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Janet Reeves link
3/6/2014 02:16:01 am

So true, Rosilind! You stated it all so perfectly. Thank you for reminding me. Sometimes we experience these truths, yet move forward and forget--until we have to learn again.

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Rosilind link
3/6/2014 03:29:31 am

Oh yes. It is one of those lessons we have to learn over and over and over - probably for the rest of our lives. :) Thank you for stopping by today to comment.

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Craig
3/6/2014 03:31:18 am

Great article Roz. Been there myself more than I care to admit.

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Rosilind link
3/6/2014 11:39:44 pm

Thank you so much, Uncle Craig. I think we visit this many times in our lives I'm sure I'll have to go through this process many more times before I see Jesus face. <3

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Jennifer N link
3/7/2014 01:09:22 am

As I begin preparing for a short term mission trip to China in 3 months, this post was very helpful to me. His plans, not mine. Thank you for sharing!

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Rosilind link
3/7/2014 02:43:36 am

Jennifer, I pray the Lord bless you as you prepare to serve Him in China.

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Melanie Caldicott link
3/9/2014 10:26:56 pm

I love your humble spirit, Rosilind and this is so helpful to help us deal with expectations that we have about our ministry.
Thanks for sharing at Essential Fridays.
Blessings
Mel from Essential Thing Devotions

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Rosilind link
3/10/2014 11:21:26 pm

Thank you, Mel. You are always such an encouragement!!

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Connie Dunton
3/14/2014 03:52:58 am

This is so true, but is not only in ministry, but living the "plain old American life" as well that he requires us to die. This has been a wretched and horrid 5 years in the process of dying for me...and my only "ministry" is wiping poopy butts ( adult!)and fixing meals and paying bills with money I dont have. Sorry if I am too graphic. Its a good lesson, and all of us need to be able to that there is hope and a reason to keep going. Love you dear girl.

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Rosilind link
3/14/2014 05:22:31 pm

Connie - I know this has been a very difficult season for your whole family. You've been heavy on my heart with all you have to bear. Never underestimate the blessing you are to those you serve...and your ministry is as much ministry as any other. Remember Jesus' lesson about the "least of these". Love you, too. I pray your are blessed and encouraged today!

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michelle
4/28/2014 11:32:01 am

Hi Rosalind, I really found this article very encouraging and inspiring. My husband and I are from South Africa and we serve as missionaries among the American Indian people in Arizona. I can so identify with what your journey. Thank you for sharing, I will stay in touch.

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