Not About Me November {Day 10}

My Rawness is Not About Me

Compassion hurts. 
Hurting with those that hurt. Well, it hurts. As God intended I suppose.
This week was especially hard. Each day with a new hurt. Thursday thinking about the 143 million children with no home, no family, no one to know them and love them. Friday discussing abortion and thinking about the 53 million babies killed in the place that should be the safest for them. Saturday reading about the 10 year old boys who were raped at Penn State. My heart breaks. Then reading about 15 year old Jonathan in Ecuador, abandoned by his parents in the jungle. His dad brings him food once in a while when Jonathan is at church.

My heart breaks. I feel raw, ready to cry at the drop of a hat because of all the crying I've done in the last few days. Compassion hurts, and I am left to cry out for the Lord to intervene. 

Come Lord Jesus!

I long for His appearing, for Jesus' return. Desperately. When He comes on His white horse with a sword, He will destroy evil. End it. He will bring Justice, Truth, Righteousness. Punish evil. Jesus coming with a sword is my Hope, my comfort. I've never realized how much comfort there is in His vengeance. 

I think Asaph and I will be friends in heaven. He also finds comfort in God's wrath poured out on evil.

"Make them like tumbleweed, O my God, like chaff before the wind. As fire consumes the forest or a flame sets the mountains ablaze, so pursue them with your tempest and terrify them with your storm. Cover their faces with shame so that men will seek your name, O LORD. May they ever be ashamed and dismayed; may they perish in disgrace. Let them know that you, whose name is the LORD--that you alone are the Most High over all the earth"  
Psalm 83:13-18

It seems he has the same desire for justice as I do, which I believe is birthed out of compassion. I hurt deeply for these oppressed therefore I long deeply for justice. Could it be that to the degree we have compassion, that is the degree we long for His appearing?

So all the evil and the pain cries out, 

Come Lord Jesus!

But that drives to share the gospel with the people groups who have never heard. If I really want the horrific evil to end, that should drive me to hurry it along since Jesus promises He will come after all people groups have heard. 

So even here, in my rawness, compassion that hurts, I see that it's not about me. That brokenness over sin leads to telling people about His great mercy and grace for those who repent.

I can't believe it's already day 10 of the Not About Me November Challenge.  I am loving this so much and am  going to be sad when it's over. (Only 7 more days)

(It's not too late to join the journey and join us in seeing God transform our hearts and minds as we behold Him and reflect on everything in life being about Him, not us. If you don't blog, feel free to join up through posting a facebook status or tweet with the hashtag #NotAboutMeNovember.)

Each weekday until Thanksgiving there is a new link up. Then tweet your post url with the hashtag #NotAboutMeNovember and grab the button to put in your post.

Here's my last nine days, but be sure to scroll down (even to previous posts) to read the other ladies linked up who have great insights. 

Family is not about me {Day 9}
Mess is not about me {Day 8}
My Identity is not about me {Day 7}
Technology is not about me {Day 6}
My Curiousity is not about me {Day 5}
My emotions are not about me {Day 4}
My reputation is not about me {Day 3}
What I know is not about me {Day 2} 
My ministry is not about me{Day 1} 

If you're participating in the Not About Me Challenge, I look forward to reading your posts. Go ahead and link up below.

#267 The Hope and Comfort found in Jesus' Return to destroy evil
#268 God giving the ability to have compassion 
#269 and not fully understanding why
#270 Many children getting sponsored through compassion because of the compassion bloggers
#271 The movie Courageous!!! 
#272 Having a great date night
#273 Our friend and staff girl Angi, willing to watch our kiddos

I'm linking up with A Holy Experience, A Pause on the Path, The Beauty in His Grip, Nebraska Graceful, The Wellspring