Ever feel like Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz, caught up in a whirlwind of business? I step on the soil in Dominic Republic. Off the grid; no running water, only a short time each day on a generator with electricity; dust and dirt everywhere. Still, somehow I settle into a peace I have desperately needed. We take cold, bucket baths behind resurrected steel; poured down like grace, washing away our filth. And I am reminded by this awakening…. His mercies are new every morning, regardless of where we live. And yet somehow I miss those promises back home, where I carelessly wasted resources, failing to let grace wash over me thinking, for some reason, I couldn’t be dirty…simply because I could not see my own filth. It is there, dark glasses hinder me from acknowledging the light of an abundantly blessed culture, and I miss thanksgiving, though I have so much to be thankful for. Yet in Dominican, I seem to live wearing proverbial glasses of gratefulness; though water is cold, food scarce, poverty lurks, and my resources are lacking in every sense of the word. And why is it, sometimes, our deficits reveal our need for God, our necessity for other people? At night in DR, I thank Him for my blanket-less bunk, in the corner of one brick room, twenty people crowded near each other. I find thanks in the little creatures crawling across wood fences; for the small voices I still hear outside playing carelessly. Looking carefully, I see more. Needing grace, I listen more. It is here I am forced to stop the whirlwind, and plant my feet in a land more like the farm in Kansas than Dorothy’s brick road going nowhere. Still, back at home, my own dark-skinned adopted daughter catches me, as if begging, “Slow down”. Soccer, swimming, all those “important” things around me carry me spinning in circles until I can’t see straight. And could it be, I am the one allowing the whirlwinds to blow me, here in my very own home, when grace is just as fresh and full, where His goodness and peace are still available despite the little piece of soil we each individually stand on in this world? I unpack my one roll-on from the plane. A few pants, a couple tee-shirts, that’s all I needed then. Behind me taunts my walk-in-closet, full of clothes, surfacing the reminder of my deep seeded consumerism. Why is “stuff” continually deceiving, trying to convince me…I must have more? But what if we silenced the voices of discontent in each of us? What if we simplified, and refused the winds by telling those insistent naggings, “no”? What if we chose moments, hearts, people, and the hearts of our children, instead of business or stuff? How might our lives change? What if grace is an attitude of thankfulness, stopping to see His goodness in little things; Christ-centered glasses the answer to everything? Would our nothingness then be enough? Some days I still long for the visible dirt roads I traveled daily in Dominican Republic; for the one room brick building, children eagerly surrounding. For life rises in those still places winds die in, where nothing is taken for granted, and the filthiness of our souls finally becomes clear. And when whirlwinds stop, isn’t that when grace becomes most visible? Where Dorothy’s like us can land our feet, welcoming stillness and the silence of simplicity; choosing glasses of thanks, eyes focusing on His buckets of grace. A grace that truly is sufficient… Regardless of where we live. About JenThough born, raised, and still living only miles from where she grew up, Jen's heart lies in the nations. Jen loves the beautiful tapestry found in the wide diversity of people, different cultures, and all nations. Jen and her husband have been married twenty years, and have parented fifteen kids and counting; twelve foster, one adopted, and two bios. Her multi-racial family reflects her passion for unity, desire for faith without walls, and missional mindset to share both the gospel and the power of redemption to a world desperately needing the hope found in Jesus Christ. Jen and her husband have led in a variety of ministries; including prayer, small groups, children's, and women’s. Jen advocates for the orphan as a board member for the non-profit, A New Song; and loves doing missions work internationally, along with her family. You can find Jen writing about faith, while challenging her readers at her blog, Rich Faith Rising, as well as at tweeting faith-filled messages @Jen_Avellaneda . Jen is also on facebook. If you'd like to read more from this contributor, type her name in the search box on the top right. Sharing this over at these awesome blogs
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7/11/2014 09:49:40 am
I love the line of proverbial glasses of gratefulness. The Lord has had me in a place of learning more and more to trust in what He sees over what I sees. It is why I write about living with faith-eyes. I love the thought of seeing also through lenses filled with gratitude for our Father, King, Almighty God. This is a beautiful piece shared here Jen.
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7/15/2014 01:34:18 am
Sounds like we are on similar journeys. How everything changes when we look through eyes of "thanks".
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"thinking for some reason I couldn't be dirty because I couldn't see my own filth..." Why is it in America where we have and have and have that we find it so hard to see our personal filth? I was convicted reading this, letting the truth settle, asking God to keep me aware of where my heart is and what I need to wash off. ~Pamela
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7/15/2014 01:35:49 am
Oh this most humble place to be, friend...asking God what part of us, doesn't yet quite look like Him!
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7/15/2014 01:37:08 am
Oh yes, and that we might not be moved from His firm foundation.
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It's beautiful, isn't it, the lengths God will go to teach us the lessons he has for us... even to the point of taking us around the globe so we can better see what we have right in our own homes. It does take stillness, and it's easier to get there outside of our regular routines. But this is a blessed reminder to seek the stillness we need to return to that gratefulness. Thanks for linking with Unforced Rhythms.
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7/15/2014 01:40:10 am
Ha, so true! Why is it easier to find His stillness away from the world we live in? Might He come near, now, here, in our present place and circumstances....as we quiet our souls.
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mary
7/16/2014 02:56:20 pm
Jen-- as always your Mission focused heart shines through this post! You have challenged me with these words:
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7/20/2014 08:18:56 am
It really struck me how you questioned whether you were creating your own whirlwinds to get caught up in; I've been so busy and I've been thinking I need to simplify as much as I can to focus on what is really important. This is such great encouragement to live in a counter-cultural way! We get so caught up in what we "think" we need based on our culture instead of focusing on God and His grace. At the same time, I love how my life is so atypical because as a foster mom (I know you understand!) there is always so much to do and take care of and it does help daily remind me to keep my eyes on God since there is no other way I could do this. I wrote a piece last week about it on my site at http://uncommongrace.net/2014/07/14/it-takes-a-village/ . It is such a blessing and thanks so much for sharing!
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