My Time Is Not About Me

Time is one of those things I either spend or hoard more than money. I don’t enjoy sacrificing it easily to the things that pop up during the day. I especially hate when my relaxation time gets cut into by interruptions or even scheduled obligations.

Time is a precious thing from the Lord. God sees time so much differently then I do. I get so irritated with God sometimes because He doesn’t work things out in my timing. I want my money issues to be taken care of by the end of each month. I want my husband to shoot an elk the first day of hunting season so he doesn’t have to go out for the rest of the time. I want the people I disciple to understand who they are in Jesus by the end of the hour I get with them each week. I REALLY want my daughter to immediately stop screaming for no reason in the middle of the night the second I pop that pacifier in her mouth!

Seriously God?! Why on earth can’t you just work these things out quickly?? YOU put me through this stress and anxiety. Aren’t YOU the One who told me not to worry, and yet you give me all these things to worry about?

Then this verse popped up during a discipleship appointment this week:

“The Lord does not delay His promise, as some understand delay, but is patient with you, not wanting any to perish but all to come to repentance.”      -2 Peter 3:9

It hit me like a ton of brick. God is slow because He cares so much for each individual to come to know Him personally, that He allows awful things to continue so they can have that chance. Even just a chance! If He cares so much about the individuals to come to know Him, doesn’t He care about my situation too? Yes! He cares about my circumstances and the time frame I work in. He knows the big bills that are coming before I do. He knows how hunting helps us financially. He knows the issues the people I work with face – far better than I do! He knows how much sleep my family needs. If He knows these things, and is patient to show up in His timing, shouldn’t I be patient as well?

This verse also showed me lately how my time has been reflecting my priorities. My time – unlike God’s time – has been revolving around me and the circumstances that come up. I trust how I feel over giving my feelings and circumstances over to the extremely patient God of the universe. My time has been spent escaping to my egocentric world, instead of keeping Christ where He needs to be – in the middle of everything I do, guiding and directing where He wants me to go.

Lord Jesus, please forgive me for my nasty heart. Forgive me for putting TV, sleep, tasks, and so many other things before you. Forgive me for not trusting you with my time. Forgive me for not trusting you with YOUR timing as well! You truly have a plan to bring YOURSELF the most amount of glory from my circumstances. Help me to trust you with your timing. Let it begin with me daily trusting you with my time. In Your Mighty name I pray….

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About Leah

Leah works with Master Plan Ministries at Fort Lewis College in Durango, CO. Other than watching college students' lives change, she enjoys getting her mind blown by God and His Word, watching sci fi, baking cupcakes, and spending time with her hunky husband. ​

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