I wish I handled trials with more grace. I wish I could run the race without breaking a sweat. I wish I was the girl able to hold the weight of the world on her shoulders living in full surrender with a smile on my face and a “Bring it at me” attitude.
Even though I may at times appear that way the truth is: I get frazzled, exhausted from trying to juggle all of life’s juggling pins without letting one fall to the ground. There are days I am begging for more grace to handle this load (ehm…like today). Days I feel that all the pins are falling, a complete failure, I might as well quitter, I’m weak – I’m incapable of being who God wants me to be. The call God has placed on my life – I’m not worthy of it, I can’t do it.
Don’t judge me too harshly, I know you’ve been there. Yet those are my feelings.
The great Deceivers biggest weapon, I believe, is forged to strike a woman in the feelings. It was Satan’s attack on Eve’s “feelings, emotions, doubts” that led to the fall of mankind after all. She allowed those plaguing doubts to lead her husband into sin.
* My reality says: I am a screw up.
* God says: I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
* My Reality says: I’m a natural born sinner.
* God Says: while we were yet sinners Christ died for us. When I’m out of Grace, He’s abounding in it!
* My Reality says: I am incapable of doing everything. I’m incapable of fulfilling the call God has placed on my life.
* God Says: That is true; when “the call” I want is different from the direction He is has planned for me.
Have you ever heard the phrase: “You can’t put a two pound sack of flour into a one pound bag?” Maybe it’s a southern thing, but the saying is still true. I think I fall into this category often as I seek to follow the Lord, I pick up (or I try to pick up) juggling pins God didn’t intend for me to pick up.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30
His yoke is easy! If I feel like I am in a noose I’m not under His yoke!
Lord, forgive us when we get so bombarded by “doing good” that we lose sight of You. I pray that You will keep us under Your yoke, not aiming to please others, may our goal be to please You. Teach us what it means to take rest in You. Help us to learn from Your gentle and Humble Heart.
Melissa Bradley is married with two small children. She serves at a church plant in Hendersonville, NC. The passion of her heart is to live every day missionally. You can also find Melissa at Beautiful Mommy Feet, she and her husbands personal ministry page, a women’s ministry page -Radiance and on Facebook.
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