The first day I worked out with my trainer at the gym I worked out for 10 minutes with him and almost puked. The second day I worked out with my trainer, I reached midway and started crying! Ok, not a good start I know. Aaron (my trainer) asked me what was wrong as I was killing myself on the elliptical with tears streaming down my face.
I can’t believe I’ve gained this weight.
I can’t believe how out of shape I am.
How could I let this HAPPEN!
You wanna know what Aaron said to me during my pity party? He looked at me and said “Ya know what Rhonda, this is where you’re at today. Who cares where you were 6 months ago. This is where you’re at today.”
This is where I’m at.
I don’t even really know how to express the freedom those five words brought me. Like suddenly everything was put into a fresh perspective. I can’t change where I’m at today- only what I do today and what I allow the Lord to do in my life! I can’t go back to last summer and not eat everything in sight like I did (ha ha).
This is where I’m at. Not as in shape as I was in high school, but working out today.
This is where I’m at. I can’t wear the jeans I could when I lost weight last year, but I’ve been at the gym at 6am for almost 4 months now!
Maybe I’m not where I “need to be” according to the world, but I do think I am where I need to be TODAY according to a sovereign God.
This is where I’m at. I haven’t lost 50 lbs, but I have kept my resolution (mostly) to walk in the Spirit in my weight loss and fitness goals and instead I’ve lost 17lbs.
You wanna know the greatest victory I have had in this area? I have stopped (almost altogether) walking in the lie that I have to achieve perfection in the area of fitness. Instead I have been walking in the beauty and freedom of the grace of God. And the crazy thing about God’s grace is this...
Titus 2:11-12 For the grace of God has appeared, bringing salvation for all people, training us to renounce ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright, and godly lives in the present age..
Somewhere along the line I think I had believed that grace and fitness were sort of opposite, but it turns out that God’s grace is actually what empowers and trains us to be self controlled! Thank you Lord for your grace!
So maybe I’m not fit today. But today I can workout without crying! And today I choose to walk in the grace of God. I choose to be empowered by His grace and His Holy Spirit and to say no to guilt and condemnation!
Does anyone else feel like they need to throw off their expectations of perfection in weight loss and trade it for walking in the grace of God?
Rhonda attended Oklahoma Baptist University for two years until she felt called to reach out to a secular campus. She then transferred to Mesa State where she graduated in 2004 with a B.A. in Counseling Psychology. She now serves as a missionary to college students and has a passion for reaching out to young women. God has a purpose and design for who he wants Godly women to be, and Rhonda is excited about helping women find freedom and joy in His purpose.
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