What leads your life? When I was in high school, and through much of my college career, feelings led my life and my faith. When I was happy, it must be because I had faith. And if I was sad, then I must be doing something wrong. There must be some area in my life where I was in sin- otherwise I wouldn’t be sad... or bad things wouldn’t be happening! Anytime negative circumstances or feelings happened in my life, I equated it with me having a lack of faith.
I didn’t even know that there was another way to think!
Then in college I was introduced to the idea that I did not have to walk by faith in my feelings, but that I can actually walk by faith in God’s Word! Later this would be tested. After being married for a few years and trying and trying to get pregnant, Jesse and I found out that it was medically not a possibility for us to have children biologically. I was devastated. I asked God why. I cried into my pillow. I FELT like I had no purpose.
If I had chosen to walk in my feelings I would have curled up in bed and not emerged. My FEELINGS were telling me that my only purpose in life was to be a wife and mom. My FEELINGS told me that God had nothing good for me!
But God reminded me to put my faith in the TRUTH (fact) of his word and that my feelings and circumstances would follow. He reminded me of my purpose- to Love others... to share the gospel... to glorify Him. I still had feelings, but chose to walk in the truth that my purpose wasn’t dictated by whether or not I ever got to be a mom. I still grieved, but even in the midst of grieving, I was able to focus on His Word and keep putting my faith in the truth.
Do you sometimes ride the roller coaster of feelings based faith? Does it help to know that you can put your faith in the unfallible word of God instead of feelings? Our feelings can lie- God’s Word never does! I pray your faith would be united through the word of Christ.
Romans 10:17- So faith comes from hearing, and hearing through the word of Christ.
Rhonda attended Oklahoma Baptist University for two years until she felt called to reach out to a secular campus. She then transferred to Mesa State where she graduated in 2004 with a B.A. in Counseling Psychology. She now serves as a missionary to college students and has a passion for reaching out to young women. God has a purpose and design for who he wants Godly women to be, and Rhonda is excited about helping women find freedom and joy in His purpose.