Anyway, we have a friend who substitute taught at the school the boys are suppose to attend. While she was teaching a kid was telling the other kids how his parents just had a levitation service the night before and said the school has a very strong homosexual push found in the kids books.
We were already leaning toward homeschooling because it seemed there was so many benefits, but this pushed us over the edge. It was settled that we would start homeschooling and would take it year by year. Here I was thinking I was so flexible and adaptable taking things year by year until God has His sweet gentle way of checking me back into reality.
Austin was at the park a month-ish ago and our kids were talking about Jesus with some other kids. We live in a very new-age and homosexual neighborhood so Austin went over to hear what was being said (I think mostly to keep our kids from being yelled at by the kids parents. The other day 4 year old Uriah told a 8 year old kid who said, "Oh my God" he shouldn't say that, God doesn't like that and the kids mom came over and yelled at Uriah). The mom also walked over to listen in. Turns out they were believers. The lady started telling Austin about this brand new Christian Classical school 3 blocks from our house. He came home with her number for me to call. But me, in my "we've already decided" mindset I thought that would be a waste of time to call some random lady I don't know to get information I don't need.
A couple weeks later I was with the kids at the park. The boys invited other kids to play Narnia. The dad of some of the kids asked me if they were playing Narnia and turns out they are believers too! Then he proceeded to tell me about this great Christian Classical school 3 blocks away his kids go to. Crazy! The big question in my mind was "Is this the husband of the wife Austin talked to?"
A week later Austin's father in law was in town and I took him to chick-fil-a, not anywhere close to where we live but those nuggets are so worth the drive! I was telling him the story of meeting the people at the park when Asher stopped playing to come tell me his friends were there. I said, "Oh sweetie, I don't think so" thinking there is no way we know anyone way up here. A minute later a lady comes up to me to ask if I am Asher and Uriah's mom. Stunned I say "Yes" and she goes on to tell me she met my husband at the park... You know the rest of the story. Finally I get a clue and get information about the school and ended up going to an open house where I fell in love with it!
The question is, how can someone think they are being so willing and adaptable and it take that much to get them to budge in their heart desires!? How could I have thought I was so willing to do what God wanted us to do with the kids schooling but yet have actually been so completely unwilling that it took that many goads to get me to just go to an open house!?
Once again I find comfort in the mistakes and failures of the disciples. Oh thank you Lord for including them in Scripture and not just giving us a bunch of perfect people examples.
"They left that place and passed through Galilee. Jesus did not want anyone to know where they were, because he was teaching his disciples. He said to them, "The Son of Man is going to be betrayed into the hands of men. They will kill him, and after three days he will rise." But they did not understand what he meant and were afraid to ask him about it." Mark 9:30-32
Unwillingness is a result of many things, but for the disciples it was from fear. But the consequences of their unwillingness not only affected them but also others. They totally missed out on the blessing of understanding because of their unwillingness.
Meek is the opposite of unwilling. Meek is being pliable in the Master's hands. It's a strong person surrendering their rights. It's like a wild horse yielding to the master. When we are unwilling we are like wild, out of control horses who cause nothing but frustration to ourselves and the people around us. It makes me wonder why we, why I, ever hold onto things so tightly, so unwilling to let go. It's probably causing me more pain and frustration to hold on than actually letting go and being mold-able in the hands of God.
What about you? What are you holding onto, unwilling to let go of? And what does it take to get you to change?
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